Heartbreak – Angustia
We were excited for Christmas this year with the boys. All of our plans had been made, decorations had been hung, gifts had been purchased, stockings had been colored… and then on Friday we received a shocking call. The boys aunt had changed her mind and wanted them back.
Everything moved stunningly quickly and yet seemed to take forever. We struggled to get information. There was a court case on Tuesday.
Someone told us that the boys would go home on Tuesday. We were also told that it was more likely to be Friday. Another person called and had no idea that they were scheduled to go home.
When it was all said and done, two social workers that we had never met arrived at our house yesterday at 3:15 to get the boys. We never received a call to let us know when they would be coming. Maybe it was better that way because we did not have to dread our goodbye. It surprised us and was over very quickly. I do not think that I could have handled it any other way. It was hard enough as it was.
The boys have no idea what is going on, and it is heartbreaking that they have so little control over their lives. They were so excited when I told them that they would be going back to their aunt that day, especially Spiderman, but then a couple of minutes later he told me that they would come back “home” tomorrow. Ironman clung to me when the social workers came to get him and tearfully pleaded to stay. That killed me. They both informed us that they will just tell their auntie to bring them to visit us. I tried to prepare them for the fact that she would not be willing to do so.
And now our house is quiet. To be honest there were things that we enjoyed last night. It was nice to have a quiet dinner in a restaurant and to go a movie. We enjoyed sleeping in this morning, but I also really miss the morning snuggles. We were led to believe that the boys would be with us for a long time when they were dropped off on November 14. How could we have imagined that they would be gone a little over five weeks later?
We knew that this could be a possibility, but it doesn’t make it any easier to accept. How is it possible to love two boys so much so quickly? This Christmas is going to be very difficult.
Happy Holidays!
I am a teacher, traveler, artist, writer, homemaker and a whole lot more. In January 2009, I bought the Cape of Dreams. It was the second house that I had ever owned, but it was the first that I bought by myself. I now live in the house with my husband Douglas, our dog Kahlua, and Crème de Menthe, the cat. Because, what life is complete without a little Kahlua and Cream? I love arts and crafts of all kinds, and I refinish furniture as well. We are slowly redoing our entire house. You can read about my projects on my blog www.CapeofDreams.com
Oh Jessica, I am so, so sorry to hear this. How difficult for you all. I wish you a blessed and peaceful Xmas and may there be good things around the corner for yo you in the New Year.
The good news is that we will be able to spend Christmas with Douglas’ family and all of our nieces and nephews. We were going to have to miss it this year because we were not allowed to leave the state with the boys, and we only get to be with his family every other year. I am hoping that those kids can sooth my soul. Merry Christmas to you!
I’m crying as I read this. What a crazy turn of events. I’m so sorry that everyone’s lives have turned upside down. I hope you and the boys find peace this Christmas.
I have cried so much in the past week. I do hope that they are happy with their family. Merry Christmas to you!
I’m crying with you, too. I know both of you have a worldful of love to give to children. The boys were so blessed to spend time with you. There is someone who needs you. Jo @ Let’s Face the Music
At least we know that we were able to help these kids for a little while when they needed us. I just hope that we will see them again one day.
so very sad, on so many fronts. it seems the only person who will be happy is the person least deserving of such things. you and your husband are such strong people, and i hope you will heal after this quick journey.
b
It is hard to think about. We can only hope that she appreciates the boys now that she spent some time away from them.
I am so sad for you and Senior. They boys must be struggling too. Chin up and hope that 2017 will bring
more joy.
I really hope that 2017 will be a great year. 2016 was good, until the last two months, which were brutal.
That is such heartbreaking news 🙁 🙁 🙁 I am so sad for you guys, and for the boys 🙁 I didn’t know what was even a possibility – how amazingly sad! especially to happen now, a few days before christmas 🙁 My heart breaks for you 🙁
*HUGS* to you and Douglas.
With foster care there is always the possibility. In this case it seemed remote, or at least we were led to believe it was.
I’m so sorry to hear your sad news! I can’t even begin to imagine how you both must be feeling. You have each other and I’m sure you’re strong enough to get through such a difficult and sad situation together. Sending hugs!
Thank you! The warm wishes from around the globe have helped. Wishing you a happy Christmas in Berlin… assuming that is where you are celebrating it.
You did your best to make their lives happy. So sorry for you and Douglas.
Hopefully we helped them and will have a bit of a lasting impact on their lives.
How you and Douglas doing? Thinking of you! And Spiderman and Batman. *HUGS*
We are doing well considering and keep thinking about them as well. I just wish that we could contact them to ask them how they are doing.
They will be impacted by your love and influence forever, even though the time was unfairly short. I have no doubt. Thank you both for doing what you do – the courage, joy, and patience it takes is unimaginable. Sending so much love and good vibes your way. xo Bonne année.
Thank you, Sweetie. I hope that you have had a good break. See you Tuesday!